Squirrely's Corner

Plio caught my 6,666 page view!
All hail plio, for she is greatness.


so it's a:34 am here...
I'm tired but I still can't sleep...
So ... what am I to do?
I'm painting gift arts since I've kinda figured out layers and such. woot.
So if you have any requests just let me know.

- no worries your cob is nextest. ^^

Squirrely's Corner

My kiriban is coming up soon. just as an update... as you know it's at 6,666 page views. so...

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21. Where you want to go on vacation:
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Squirrely's Corner

I don't want to do art.
I don't want to draw.
I don't want to color.
I don't want to paint.
I don't want to do any of it. I pick up a pencil and the voices in my head growl at me for even thinking of picking up the pencil....
So naturally I look for inspiration.
Photos.
Paintings.
Post cards.
Comics.
Horses.
Dragons.
Fairies.
Pin-Ups.
Luis Royo.
nothing.
Still blnk.
Still Growling.
I long for it.. but there's no real desire.
I don't know...
I don't sleep.
I can't sleep.
I can't sleep for thinking.
I can't think for crying.
Or at least the want to cry.
But I can't cry.
The tears just wont fall.
And that physically hurts.
So then I sleep and I dream.
But the dreams are nightmares.
So I wake up where I started.
I cry in my sleep more than I do when I'm awake.
I awake to a soaked pillow and a drinched face.


I want it to go away.
Leave me be.
Quit haunting me.
It's a curse.







and the mood button thingymajig wont work.
Big Grin is not my mood right now.
promise.

Squirrely's Corner

Just a couple updatedness stuff.

my kiriban is coming up soon... about 300 page views away...
it's at 6,666. yes, of course their will be a prize for catching it.

Top priorities:
Collab /w Shiva & Gifty for Broken-Demoness.

New baby gecko is growing and he shedded the other day.
i love it sooo much. it's so freakin adorable! No... I still don't have a name for it.

Squirrely's Corner

This is what my 'best friend sent me today....

i haven't called anyone. i'm sorry for what i do, but my time in your life and lori's is over. it is time you both understood that.

you could never understand, it isn't what i do that makes me sad. it is the reasons why the things i do need to be done that make me sad. and regret.

what do i regret?

a lot of things.

i'm still living.

meandering through life 'till i find someone else to pull the strings.

i hope i left a happy memory or two. because i can't feel the rain anymore.

what am i going to do...
i don't want to lose him.. but i think i already lost him a long time ago.. and i've only been trying to find him since then.
i think i'm going to quit.
i think i have to quit.
he has Homie tattood on his back.
i'm thinking of selling Homie now.



But I'm bleeding, and my hands are bruised
From the grip that I once had on you
And I'm open for a new way
Because there's not much more that I can fake

It's almost seeing your soul for the first time
And watching the mirror show you life in rewind
Capture the ridicule of everyone
I'm tired of trying, and they wonder why I'm gone
- Shinedown, Fake